Indulging with the writer within you ..

I haven't read quite a lot of books but I make it a practice to make myself invest my senses on  different variety of books at lease once in a few months. Not just books I even have this tendency to read through book's blurbs and reviews and about the authors out of curiosity that needs to be  satisfied when I come across some mysterious and interesting subject and plot lines.

 For instance my last book was about Shri Ram in a mythological fiction based on Ramayana. It was a good story line that gave me an idea of how to create fiction out of legends that have been there for ages and has been retold again and again.

 I try not to restrict myself to any particular genre of reading which I believe could help me develop ideas about  multiple areas and subjects that in turn will come handy whenever I plan to start writing something of my own . YESss that's right I am one among those  many aspiring writers who have rarely put any or very little effort towards writing something that people would want to read.

Even though I have tried writing once or twice thinking that I would hit something untold genius  while writing but after a few pages it just gets to a dead end, you could say it as a writers block or in my case non writers dead end :-).

Once I came across something written that said the quality of your writing  is influenced by what you read. So that's the reason I have been trying to read as much as I could but its not always that you manage to read something really good and inspiring. 
I believe what could really help for a writing project is to  have a sidekick in writing or someone you could discuss this with so that new ideas and angles in the story screenplay can be carved out. So its better when there's more than one person contributing to the writing.

Fiction writing is a great tool that we can use to weave a world of our own, you can layout your own set of rules , create your dream characters and human or demi god  traits that each of us have imagined sometime as a kid or as a grown up child. 
Doesn't matter what you write what language, what style, what kind of period of civilization you project , whether its an inspired one or based on someone's life , fiction, non fiction in the end what matters is a story that needs to be told and most of us like to read a good story. 

Storytelling is   a time tested classic which never goes out of fashion...  

Just another accident...

I am beginning to feel like I am a wreck of emotions with lot of anger, distress and hatred running inside me after last nights accident caused by a mentally disturbed car driver just for the sake of teaching us a lesson by hit my bike and causing a fall to hurt us, I was riding along with my fiance. She took a fall too within days of hurting her leg when we fell after my bike skidded on a rainy night and due to my rage driving antiques. I don't know what got the car driver  enraged but I guess he was honking behind me and I took a few seconds to give way to him.

I am shocked at the mindset with which people drive on the roads.I wonder how can a  person act so insensitive and still able to ride his car freely around in the city. People like him are killers moving around freely , they hit motor bike riders, pedestrians and even after that they move on without any remorse.

In the meantime while I am coping up with the tsunami of emotions inside me I am also pondering over the thoughts that why something wrong that happened to me which I feel is obvious is actually hurting me apart from the physical bruises caused by the accident. Why am I not being able to find peace just because the person who caused this ran away unharmed , I am not sure when did I become so sadistic or I always had this inside me, this avenger attitude deep within me may be  due to some incidents  that happened in my past and I felt helpless at those times which I still haven't overcome. So all that grudge that I have been holding for too long and I am trying to cleanse them out of me.

Writing this post is just an  honest attempt to free myself of all the resentment circulating inside me  post this incident. I am many of you reading this might have gone through these thoughts too so I hope reading this might help some of you to decode the psych when some one goes through such feelings.
And also I am hoping that people will be able to empathize with someone who goes through such a turmoil putting on their shoes.

The Family you choose and and the one that you can't ..

I am back to my blog after a long time the reason being I didn't know  with whom to share all these that is running in my head and my life at the moment. I thought blogging my thoughts would be a good idea so that at least I can share my situation with total strangers albeit I may not get any instant magic solution or guardian angel, but at least I may find some solace venting out on the digital society called web.

 Situation is nothing new it must have happened everyday , each and every corner around us that we might have seen or heard of . This is age old story of  2 people who want to be together but due to stigmas and social pressures families are finding it difficult to accept the alliance.

There can be variations to this situation in terms of the stand of the two sides one side would appear as the villain and other side the victim but I do not understand why does it have to be so critical, as if this one marriage will define their whole life why is it so difficult to understand its just a event in the life's long journey. There are hell lot of things that we can focus on rather than trying to please the society which itself is busy with their own issues.

I know I may sound as one of those rebellion youngster who feel like the whole world is against them when they fall for someone but I am also trying to think by standing in  parents shoes, nevertheless it may not fit me but its just a sincere attempt although sooner or later I might get overwhelmed by my new age thinking that prevents me from going back and thinking like our previous generation would do.

Its very strange how this gap in thoughts between two different generations has always been there irrespective of  culture or class or anything else. But when you think a little  harder you will realize its something that comes naturally with past experience of certain situations when it comes to our parents.

There are certain inherent fears from past that always stops them from having faith on us that we can handle the situation and stand on our own, we are always the little kid for them. 

So the pressing question is how do you tackle or solve such a situation ... I don't want to sound preachy but my thoughts are go for it calmly and patiently with a hint of rebellion in between so that you can put your point across without sounding immature or detached from your family that has been with you for the important first half of your life and will always be a part of your life, just need to assure them might take time but its worth the journey and accomplishment feeling that comes afterwords.

... :-)